♥The Diary♥

Chilling la... its been my frequent use word.. guess when things happened too much and you already expected.. eventually you'll become numb and just chill.. i guess the world is just selfish. .. everyone will just pin point your weakness but no one eventually see your strength ...   yeah.. i know my weakness is hot temper and i can cool down in 1 sec depends on situation... i guess everyone will have temper... not only me right? well, for 2 years what i did it is really a waste? i did so much.. and yet everyone just see my weakness.. i did not ask for the moon or the stars.. i just want a simple thing that everyone can do.. no lies no hurt just trust, understanding, caring, loving.. do you really think i am happy with all this happened? let me tell you is NO .. i am just a girl.. i'm not as tough as you think i am..  i really got no solution for all this crap.. really,, its till the limit i'm numb to it.. all i want is someone who can sit down and listen to what i complain...

This is the one question that is bugging me recently. What is L.O.V.E. my relationships turns out to  be a relationshit. Why i said that? Because i don't feel LOVE, i can't feel LOVE? or it is a better way to find a person that LOVE you more that you love the person. Happiness that way? I really don't know. i can't feel the connection anymore xoxo Princess

Girls n ink.. y girls cant have tattoo?  Reflect the girl is a wild n naughty?  I guess if u have this thinking on me.. you're damm wrong... I have two ink on my body.. n it doesn't mean im bad or wild..

Shit happens... been thru it.. now the most important thing is that I need your support I need you to be there for me.. but I get nothing... I suffer the fear the pain n everything... do you feel my pain? No.. u cant feel it.. all I need is your support n your accompany... but nothing... too high expectations?  You only care about your games everyday stuck ur face to the phone.. im having a massive depression!  I need you and you can't be there.. :) this is call life I guess..

We were having a drinking session with one friend... we were talking about how to celebrate my birthday n my bf birthday where to go on birthday cause is 21 birthday... my bf say one thing only... ot caused my half year plan... I wanna be in KL for my birthday cause all my friends is here... hey do u know what I plan.. do u know how hurt is that... do u know it took me 6 months to plan.. do u know that my birthday coming and I dint even think about it.. n you keep asking what I want for my birthday?  How I wanna plan my birthday im like planning for myself.. u dint even wanna plan.. do u think I wanna club this year? Is I dint even plan.. ya I wanna have a huge party.. as in.. all come and eat or something... not club... u think I like club? Ya my birthday this year just stay at home and not celebrate... im not gonna go Cameron Highlands im gonna cancel my leave and work.... im hurt im no mood... tq for ruin every plan that I plan for your birthday

Hey bi.. did u know I accidentally saw ur convo?  I read the whole convo... and if u think that im wrong.. im sorry.. I just can't bear seeing you go n die..  if u think im wrong cause mad at u having a tank.. i can tell u that.. im mad because u do things too fast... n never think of consequences... if u think im wrong that don't let u go genting with ur bff with a motor.. is because I cant bear the worried.... n u should know how dangerous is it to go there with a motor.. If I can say this to ur fren to his face I'll tell him that if u want use ur life to go there... u may go there with ur frens but please do not ask my bf to go n risk his life to accompany u.. cause I can't affort to lose the person I love the most... But I can't... cause u will still think im not understanding n im wrong... that's y I choose to keep quite n cry myself... if can.. stand in my shoe n think.. :)

Feels like.. every time I talk to you.. Either u focus on ur tank, ur game, ur Facebook. ..im like talking to the wall... and every time we talk.. there is like a lil argument... y.. :/ things change huh... I hate when im talking to u and u start disturbing me.. because im talking seriously not joking... every time u poke me.. it hurts... just that i did nt tell u.. when I warn you.. u think im joking.. emo lea...