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It's been a year..

Time flies.. it's been a year..  oh well.. This year been ups and downs! Like a roller coaster ride for me.. see some true face of people when they know that you know their secrets..  true color shows when they are fucked up.. :) let's say.. starting of year 2014 I tot everything gonna be alright tot I found the guy.. but in fact he is not the one.. thing end in June after my trip to Taiwan.. Indeed taiwan is a awesome place to visit.. after that.. Most of my months I travel around.. been to penang, langkawi, malacca, and my favourite place taiping.. ❤ For those that look down on me.. saying that: - she won't be able to buy car - she won't be able to get her licence - she so bad temper won't get married or a bf Sorry to tell you that.. first of all I have financial issue.. I have high commitment.. But now.. I'm proud to say that I manage to get my own car.. and marriage in my list.. like hello which guy will actually wait for a girl for two years and being
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What a FRIEND?

Yea.. Thanks for "being there for me". Whoever know your side of the story definitely support you. but hello there is always two sided story, if people are so blinded by your "fake" face go ahead. cause who are my friends know me the best, yea i have a lot of weakness, how about you? you are not perfect as well! you know what happened and act innocently like you don't know a thing? where are you when i need you the most? don't fake it in my face. secondly think before you accuse me, i thank your mother at the air port! if i don't appreciate her time you freaking think i that free to go find the coffee all the way from Malacca and bring all the way to Taiwan? NO! so think before you accuse! about my job yea Thank You for introducing this job to me but my position now is i myself succeed it. true friends stay and never leave stop being so fake and go back where once you bitch about her before. you can climb up ****ing high with your face but whe

Of angel n devil

I choose my path.. I decided to leave.. n I dint expect you to nt do anything but just text to said dont leave.. it breaks my heart n it gonna take one hell of time to recover it.. im trauma actually.. I've been thru so much pain for u... doin so much for you.. is this what I deserve?  I deserve something better.. I love ur parents like my own parents did u think of that? Did you ever think that what u do all the while is hurting me.. im in depression till now.. every time I look at my tattoo on my wrist I will have this heartache that I lost my child.. my unborn child.. if he is alive now.. he is already a month old.. cute healthy baby.. all u did was care for ur friends.. u can say depression cause me this.. but it was all ur fault!  U made me in to this.. u force me to be like that..

M.A.S.K

Mask.. Everyday I'm wearing my mask.. Sometimes I wonder when I REALLY can take it off and face people with it, maybe like now? I'm taking off my mask and writing down how I feel.. How sad I am or how hurt.. Must i really be the happy girl that everyone use to know? Laughing, smiling doesn't mean I happy with my life.. Yea people always tell me..not only you got stress unhappy.. i know.. but when im unhappy sad stress.. i really cant show it? I must be always laughing?  GIVE ME A BREAK !  I just want to be myself without wearing a mask...

What if..

What if im gone one day.. will you notice that im gone? i wont be there to listen to you, call you names, making fun of you, saying i love you, playing with you.. when you pick up your phone and call me.. no one will pick up the call.. when you text me.. no one will reply you anymore.. you won't be hearing my voice, my laughter, my crying.. when you're sick i won't be there to take care if you anymore.. when you have problems i won't be there to advice you.. when you are mad i won't be there for you to scold.. when you're hungry i won't be there to make you food or go out with you to eat.. what if im gone just like that.. will you miss the moments with me? will you blame yourself that you never treat me better and spend more times with me.. xoxo Princess

๑ chiling la ๑

Chilling la... its been my frequent use word.. guess when things happened too much and you already expected.. eventually you'll become numb and just chill.. i guess the world is just selfish. .. everyone will just pin point your weakness but no one eventually see your strength ...   yeah.. i know my weakness is hot temper and i can cool down in 1 sec depends on situation... i guess everyone will have temper... not only me right? well, for 2 years what i did it is really a waste? i did so much.. and yet everyone just see my weakness.. i did not ask for the moon or the stars.. i just want a simple thing that everyone can do.. no lies no hurt just trust, understanding, caring, loving.. do you really think i am happy with all this happened? let me tell you is NO .. i am just a girl.. i'm not as tough as you think i am..  i really got no solution for all this crap.. really,, its till the limit i'm numb to it.. all i want is someone who can sit down and listen to what i complain

What is L.O.V.E.

This is the one question that is bugging me recently. What is L.O.V.E. my relationships turns out to  be a relationshit. Why i said that? Because i don't feel LOVE, i can't feel LOVE? or it is a better way to find a person that LOVE you more that you love the person. Happiness that way? I really don't know. i can't feel the connection anymore xoxo Princess